Problems with animation suppliers

Ok, I know you don't give a fuck to my problems, but I'll write it anyway.

I've lost 15 days because of this son of a bitch, I don't want to put names (and I know you don't know him), but he fucked my life. Here's what happened:

Me and my work partner are working on a video project to sell to cable tv, and this project got one certain buyer, but we must finish it to deliver on time. Ok, we don't have a fixed date, but we lost some precious days waiting work of our animation' supplier.

We hired him for an expensive price to deliver to us a little piece of animation for the beginning of the video. Our executive producer and leader, after some days awaiting any kind of answer, wrote him asking and giving some references, words of inspiration and ended on the old and beated "surprise me"...
The guy who was hired to do this piece of art is very well recommended on our business, so we awaited and I'd became very anxious and impatient. The son of a bitch was very late.

And then became the day of the first deliver. And he surprised us.
He cam with a shit conversation, that he's passing through lots of personal problems, arguing with his wife, and in a personal artistic crisis... and lots of shit. And that he was not working anymore.
It was very surprisingly, a gigantic pain in my ass. And now I'm rolling over some nights to get it ready and steady.

I got my own fucking problems, ok? Everybody got. But I don't compromise myself in serious enterprise or something and then jump over, just because I am a lazy idiot, or in a crisis or something. It would be better if he killed himself - at least he would have a good excuse to fuck our schedule.

Going out

Despite the bad weather I'm in a really good mood. I'm going out in a moment to eat something. Just procrastinating a little bit, studying too, and thinking on nothing.

I'm going to watch two movies, despite the possibilities of seen a bad one, I'll go happy and satisfied, and I don't even know what movies are, and from where. I know nothing.

Treacherous

Thinking about next week, thinking about today, later. Now I've just stepped out of my bed, drank some juice and sat on my computer just to write about my terrible thinking about today.

Well, I'd woke up a couple hours with my brother arguing with his girl, they were loudspeaking something about some exam they were intended to do this mourning, but I really do not know what happened. If I had the chance I'll ask my brother what's happened, well, it awakened me. I was dreaming on travelling situations, remembering some old times in shitty hotels, beautiful cities like Prague, and something like that. An so I was awakened by an argue of my brother.

Today I'll maybe do something terrible. I'm going to a cinema party in a few hours, to see two movies, and then to drink free and eat free. And I'm going with a girl. She's an old friend, I'm really fond of her and her company, and she's so kind and... well. We already had sex lots of times, and I'm in a very good mood for having sex with her again. And my girl is away, my brother, that's spending some time in my home, is going today. So the situation is very proper to do something like this.

But I'm really not sure of what I'll be doing.

Thinking about someone who is far away

I miss her, yes, but I don't like to admit it, obviously because now I've been with another person and it isn't a very polite thing to say. But I miss her a lot, not as a girl, a woman or sexually speaking, but as a friend, someone I really like, love as family. It's tough to deal with this situation, I do not talk to her for months and she doesn't opens any conversation or contact, she doesn't send me mails, doesn't call me, write me... nothing. And I'm respecting her not doing this things too, just because she ask me at the beginning and either because I was the one who wanted to broke the relationship, to finish it. I know she loved me a lot, she was yet loving me when we broke up, and I loved her too, but I've had another girl, I couldn't bare that situation and it was the right way to go.

It's hard to separate from people you love, even if you don't love enough to make a decision like going to live in other city, to be with this person for real.

Well, this is the situation, I'm going to her city next friday, I'll spend a couple days there to be with my sister (she also lives there and she's going to face a medical operation), and to be with my family (everybody is going too). And I'm really thinking about going to see her, but it's obviously not right, and I feel that I would want to be with her for other things, but I really don't want to do this to my girlfriend, so I not going to see her. But it's annoying me, I cannot stop thinking about her, and it's bad, too bad.

Actually I am very worried with my little sister, if it wasn't for her I wouldn't go, so I wouldn't suffer with this nostalgic and hard feelings.

Well, changing the subject I'm in a bad hangover right now. Yesterday I was in a very fine party, with lots of friends and alcohol, so I'd got a little wasted and now I'm paying the price of loving beer and wine.

I don't remember everything about yesterday, and it's very frustrating and terrifying. Thanks god nothing bad happened. I wasn't driving, didn't fight or argue with anyone and, till I remember, everything went ok. I hate to have this alcoholic amnesiac, it sucks because you had a great night but now you're incapable remembering nothing. Shit! This moments we want to believe that we are powerful to determine that I will not drink anymore in my whole life. But obviously it's an idiot thinking and I'm always getting drunk and wasted. Always.